I Love You. But I Dont, Because Im a Baby.

I Love You. But I Dont, Because Im a Baby.
Im too young to be in love.
Im to young for sex.
Im not ready fot this.
Im stil a baby.
I love you.
But not like parents love eachother.
Were to young.
Were not in love with eachother.
Were just in love with love!
We just want someone to call theres!
Not to spend a lifetime and eternity with them.
But only to call them yours.
And only to kiss thwm.
And only to hold thier hand.
But only when YOU want to.
Not always and forever!
Just for a little while....

Pills.

"dont worry. everyones doing it."
pills.
"you'll like em'"
pills.
you pop them any chance you get.
pills.
you start to fret.
pills.
moving, shaking
pills.
your slowley breaking.
pills
hurting yourself.
pills.
kiliing your self.
pills.
you pop them every chance you get.
pills.
you get adicted.
pills.
xanex and lortabs.
pills
you eat them like candy.
pills.
but you kno there not.
pills.
"im addicted."
pills.
she is in her bathroom.
pills.
the sink is running
pills.
she is sitting in the corner
pills.
her arms around her knees.
pills.
tears fall to the ground.
pills.
hoping she will be found.
pills.
orange bottes everywere
pills.
white tops on the counter.
pills.
she grabs another.
pills.
puts it to her mouth.
pills.
her eyes roll back.
pills.
my hands drop and falls to the floor
pills.
the pill rolls on the blue and white floor.
pills.
her legs fall straight.
pills.
she has no fate.
pills.
she is so high.
pills.
she cant feel her own wheight.
Pills.
she is dreaming of flying.
pills.
forever
pills.
and ever
pills.
its all over.
pills
she is gone.
pills.
forever.

Me, Myself, and I

Greetings! I am Hanna Chanel Landon! Yes I ave already Blogged once, but that was not explaing who is the Blogger! I didnt realy explain myself. My name is Hanna Chanel Landon! I am from mobile, AL! but i am Korean, cherokee, and White!:) I ABSOLUTLY LOVE my friends! they are my lifelines! I easily get lost in music and the arts! i am a beginer violiinist. Although,I have now decided to quite the violin. Only because its not the instrument for me. It was VERY hard, but I like to try new things. And it was fun while it lasted. I had a tuff childhood. And I know some of you guys are all "What is she talking about, childhood, She still is a child!" Yes, infact I am, I a curently 13 and still ticking. But my when I was young, my home life was INCREDEBALY unsatisfying. You see i was raised by a very sick mother. and when I say sick I mean "alchoholic and drug atict." So I practicly raised myself. So what im saying is that i am not a child anymore. I am grown because I have made it on my own, like grownup's. Ofcourse my mother was actuAlly there with me bt she wasnt fully there. Just her body. And I thank god that she pulled herself together before it was too much to handle. My mom has now been clean at least 3 months! I have two beautiful baby brothers named Quin,who is 2. And Levi, who is 1! They are very annoying at times, but i am lucky to have them. I LOVE make-up! its one of my favorite things! that and my phone ofcourse! May favorite collor is orange! maybe yellow. I cant decide! Schools ok, its not my favorite thing. But its going to play a HUGR roll in my life someday. I plan on going to college to be a vet in some form. Im torn between a marine biologists, Zoologists, and a Veteranarian for exotic animals! But when i say "I plan to go to college" that means i am realy going. Not just go a year and quite. NIA! (thats no in german by the way) I am going! and im not giving up! its time for me to shine baby!:)

love always,

Hanna C. Landon

From somewhere in the south

EASTER!

EASTER

Its easter! Belly aches and tooth cavities! Eggs and bunnie rabbits! But most importantly, Gods B-Day! It is his birthday right? Or is that Christmas? I should know this, really. But whatever because its one of those two! But what I do know is that everyone makes a HUGE deal about going to church on Easter Sundays. Tell ou the truth I dont realy see why everyone does. In my point of view, you dont have to go to church to have god in your lie. Im realy not sure wat kind of religon I am. I believe in God, but i dont believe in MANY things in the Bible. But i dont worship the devil at all becaus i dont know if there realy is one or not. No one will realy know till you go there right? lots of these things dont make since at all to me. i grew up with a mom that didnt realy understand God either, not till recently anyways. So i never had anyone to explain this to me in my younger years. But i have recently been going to a youth group here in Mobile, its called Wildside! Its great, but im not sure if its what im looking for yet. But i do know that I need something bigger than myself in my life now.

Confused in the south,

Hanna Lovey Landon